5: You Can’t Fear the Future

You would never know it but I recorded the first episode of Smash Your Damn Goals in New Orleans. I love that city. It has always been a source of fascination for me, I’ve . spent a fair bit of time there visiting.

In 2013, 8 years after Katrina I made my way there for the first time onboard the TS Kennedy. The year started amazingly, I was 22 and had five months until I tested for my US Coast Guard 3rd engineers license and graduated college. I felt invincible. Sea is my favorite place to be. As we loaded up the ship to leave our first port, I got a call from my doctor. I had potentially cancerous cells I needed removed immediately.  I had the procedure done and 3 days later we cast off.

Once we had been out for a few days, I got really sick on board, some of the sickest I have ever been. My bones ached. I couldn’t get comfortable. The nurse took one look at the butterfly rash across my face and told me I needed bloodwork done as soon as we got to port, because that can be a sign of lupus. Once I heard that, my mind started spiraling. As far as I was convinced, my life as I knew it was over

I didn’t end up with an autoimmune disease, but I did end up changing how I was living. For awhile I was in a pretty dark place until I got results back. Our first night in NOLA I didn’t even want to leave the ship, but luckily I have the best friends in the world who bought me a Mardi Gras mask and made me come out and enjoy a place I had always wanted to go.

Once I found out that I was fine and had probably just had a weird skin reaction to something, I had a huge change in how I saw things. I stopped looking at my life as “just about to start.” I started saying yes to more, and finding ways to do my bucket list items vs getting caught up in reasons why I couldn’t.

Every time I am in NOLA, I grow. Something about this city pushes me way out of my comfort zone, and I am eternally thankful for that. I did my first live videos here. I stayed for a couple of days on my cross country move from Massachusetts to Texas. I FINALLY started recording the Smash Your Damn Goals Podcast here. I earned my OIM’s license just west of here.

It’s important to go to places where you can be inspired, and where you feel called to take on the world. Every time I travel here, I try to get outside my routine, and do something that I struggle with, even if it’s just something weird like trying alligator. Every time I am here, I look for discomfort. I push for my personal growth.

With all that said, I have some questions for you that I want you to think about.

Where do you find inspiration?
What about that place inspires you?
How can you cultivate that inside of yourself?
Even if you can’t find a way to be in a place that pushes you beyond your wildest imagination, what about that place can you think about or meditate on to help you grow?
What can you say hell yes to? 

What have you been putting off? Don’t do it just because you think you should, or for the sake of ticking a box. For example,  if there is something people have told you that you should do, but you have no interest in it, skip that. Things like that are either a hell yes or they are a no. Check in with yourself and find something that is a hell yes, and then go find a way to do it, and soon. You don’t need a near death experience to start living.

Where is your place for inspiration and growth? Let me know when you review on this episode or send me a DM on Instagram or Facebook @jaiscurry. You can also or screenshot this episode in your Instastories, tag me @jaiscurry and let me know! I’d love to hear from you. For more information, check out my website at www.jaiscurry.com